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[arminthada]

you mention that aelm is in your list of actors who are meticulous in their craft, can you share that list of actors of yours

hi nonnie :D

DISCLAIMER: this is just a very subjective list of young actors (young: born after 1990) who i think have really diverse and impressive performances. while not all my ult actors jj krissanapoom, up poompat... are present, i don't think of them any less. just that these are people who i've been most impressed with their transformation from one role to another.

1. NONKUL CHANON

I really will praise Nonkul every chance I get. I do think Nonkul is an actor who is constantly trying to hone his craft regardless of his experiece. I also like that as a member of THACCA, Nonkul is really active in initiating capacity building activities with his working group for the industry like these TOSAA roundtable discussions.

2. TOR THANAPOB

I love how much Tor relentlessly work with the thought of he could retire anytime soon. I remember earlier this year tracking to see which series has more filming queues (Nonkul's Mouse or Tor's My Cherie Amour because both series were over 70 filming queues). And yet immediately after MCA, Tor jumped directly into filming Spare Me Your Mercy so we could get it in November 28 (NEXT WEEK). He's just so hardworking and I love that these days he's been slowly picking his scripts so that his repertoire can be diversified (so he doesn't get boxed as the "actor who's only good at dramatic/intense roles). My Cherie Amour really proved that he's perfect for romcoms and I sincerely hope its successful performance has given him more confidence to do more comedy works in the future.

3. ICE NATARA

I've found in making this list and the actors whose performances have astounded me are often the ones who don't have too many projects at all, or they really take time to pick and choose their scripts. Even though he got his first start as a model, Ice has really proven himself through performances in GDH film One For The Road or Netflix TH series Delete. I seriously got a huge whiplash when I watched Delete because I couldn't believe the same actor playing that bulky villainous plantation owner is the same cancer-battling protagonist in One For The Road.

like allow me to just add one more gif because him filming Delete right after One For The Road is exactly the reason why Ice Natara totally deserved both the Suphannahong Award and Nataraj Award for these roles of his.

4. PEACH PACHARA

Born into the fourth richest family in Thailand, you'd think Peach Pachara wouldn't survive the nepo baby actor allegations. Oh but he did, not only did he survive, I think he's succesfully made a career for himself in doing everything that he loves like running his own snack business (anyone has tried his Potato Corner yet?), composing music scores for his series, and starring in whatever series he wants at his own pace.

Unlike the other actors on this list, I think Peach particularly excels at his "bad boy, asshole, occasionally with a heart of gold" character typecasting that I actually don't mind most of his roles being in the same color. Peach always gets the best characterisations for his roles so even if its a nonsensical comedy like Bat War or angsty lakorn like The Root or heist drama like The Believers, I can always trust Peach to deliver fully and exactly what his character promises in the first place.

just leaving these here bc he's such a sassy little rich dude. i adore him.

5. JAMES TEERADON

Love that James has been fully investing in his culinary journey for the past 3 years but he never really leaves us and sometimes come back with an interesting script. This year alone, we finally got James back in heist drama The Believers and time-loop romcom Love Stuck. Similar to others on this list, James really takes time choosing his acting projects but one thing I know is that he will never settle for an uninspiring script.

6. AELM BHUMIBHAT

My first introduction to Aelm was through 2019 GDH film Happy New Year. But it was actually his performance in Doi Boy that made me deep dive into his filmography and I'm just completely in awed of his acting methodologies and his chosen projects. Not always something digestable, often very niche and indie but Aelm is always killing his roles, an absolute scene stealer. His conversation with Pat Chayanit solidified him on this list for me. I can't wait for more fans to discover him through Spare Me Your Mercy. Personally though, I'm actually more excited to watch him play a cult-ish villain? in the Buddhist themed episode of Tomorrow and I (coming to Netflix this December 4)

7. UD AWAT

i don't think i need to say anything about ud awat. his series of posts (1, 2, 3, his goodbye post devastated me) talking about his transformation into Sorn for Doi Boy is testament to his love for acting. i'm actually forever grateful that Doi Boy came at a time when ud was considering leaving acting altogether because it truly "reignited [his] love for acting" for him and that passion in the film is just so palpable.

8. FILM THANAPAT

no words. i love this man. film is truly one31's most reliable leading actor. end of story. i don't think one31 will ever let him go but i do hope one day netflix thailand will score him for an original series because i sincerely believe he can bring even more to the table with a series that isn't written within the constraints of one31 script team.

honorable mentions: GEE SUTTHIRAK

I'd say Gee was my favorite discovery this year because I binged so much of his works like Sweet Sensory, Terror Tuesday: Extreme, The Cheery Lee Village Headman, The Betrayal, My Boo. My only qualm is that I don't think his other Workpoint lakorns (6th Sense Agency, The Scent of Hers) are that good but like they seem to love keeping Gee busy. Waiting to see Gee in Tomorrow and I, @ netflix thailand pls keep this man busy I beg

SKY WONGRAVEE

this cockroach scene alone earns him a spot on this list. ngl i would love to see him back in gdh led productions but i don't think we can get that back soon :')

BRIGHT RAPHEEPHONG

i feel kinda robbed that bright worked so hard this year, filming THREE projects consectively (two series and a film) but only the film came out. ch3 refuses to air his shelved lakorn as well. i have no hope for monomax in making his series available with engsub but i will definitely do my best in giffing his series with linn mashannoad and ken phupoom next year.

POOM PHURIPAN

the reason i hesitate adding poom in here is because i feel like his acting approach is still very instinctive and he hasn't really had many chances to develop his own methodologies to approaching his characters because his roles at ch8 were pretty much the same every time. it's really obvious that he's got potential and he just needs the right script, producers and director to bring out the acting skills he's gained from starring in dramatic lakorns. regardless, he obviously goes on the list because he's given my favorite acting performance of the year. period.

final note: you can very much tell that i'm biased because more than half of this list is gdh/nadao actors, but thank you for sending this ask nonetheless so i can share my love for these actors.

[fairyminnie444]

Hey! How are you?

I just wanna ask something

A lot of people say that everything is possible in loa especially these things that seem impossible like changing the past, dna, manifesting superpowers and etc. I do believe this is true but i have these doubts, and i like to see people telling their successful stories with these impossible manifestations.

The thing is ive never seen anyone telling such a story, especially when it comes to appearance which is the thing i see people wanna manifest the most, but unfortunately all the stories i see of desired appearance are changed like you manifested for your future, and i WANT to see a people who actually manifested things that changed their past, their reality, like if they changed their appearance and it also changed in their past photos.

Do you know any successful stories like this? because im getting tired of just seeing everyone saying its possible but not seeing a single person who was able to do it

Why? It Honestly seems like you're looking for an excuse not to start applying the law, looking for something to doubt. There are many success stories, many indeed, I've even talked here about how time doesn't exist and you can actually review your past mentally.

You will only win by applying the law, there are only benefits so I don't understand why there is all this doubt but it’s normal, u just need to change your focus.

Why Stories Like These Are Rare?

1. Uncommon Focus: While many people focus on manifesting appearance changes or desires tied to their present and future, not everyone targets rewriting their past explicitly. This could make these specific success stories less visible.

2. Lack of Sharing: People who achieve profound shifts often don’t share their journey publicly due to fear of judgment or disbelief from others. Changing the past, DNA, or appearance in old photos sounds “unrealistic” to most, even in LOA communities.

3. Subtle Shifts vs. Drastic Proof: Often, manifestations feel subtle once they materialize. For example, someone who shifts their appearance might not even notice their past photos changing because they’re fully living in their new reality and have no reason to look back.

Does This Mean It’s Not Possible?

Absolutely not. Manifesting changes to your past is rooted in the idea that everything exists in the present moment. Your consciousness creates your reality, so by shifting your assumption, you can influence your past to align with your new story. Just because these stories aren’t widely shared doesn’t mean they don’t happen.

Test It Yourself: Start with “smaller” (I don’t think small/big exists but for start) manifestations tied to your past. For example, assume you always had a great memory or a specific skill and watch how people respond to this “new” story.

Look Beyond Traditional Stories: While success stories of changing photos or DNA might not be common, focus on the principles behind other LOA success stories. If people can manifest health recoveries, wealth, or SPs “out of nowhere,” the same principles apply to changing your past or appearance.

Instead of needing evidence from others, become your own success story. Your belief and persistence in assuming your desired reality are what create results. Trust in your power rather than relying on external validation.

You don’t need proof to make it possible—it’s your belief that turns the impossible into reality.

[astronomical-light]

tagged by @bropunzeling for a fun little writing meme, so i will absolutely do that instead of actually writing <3

What's one story you've written, you're the most proud of?

recency bias is so real, because i think every time i write something new, every time i write something successfully when i thought i couldn't, it pushes me to keep trying bigger and better things. i'm proud of hold it against me because i wanted to write something fun and tropey that harkened back to the heyday of actor rpf on livejournal, so i did. i wrote 50k about it! and i had a blast! i'm proud that even though only two whole people who followed me cared about it when i started, i still wrote it. it will never get the numbers of some of my other work, but the past year or so i've really tried to free myself from the prison of "success" and just write whatever the hell i want, and it has been glorious. success is bringing your silly idea to fruition. success is having a conversation with even just one person who understands your vision. success is just fucking finishing something, lmao. i'm proud of everything i finish for different reasons.

when i finish stalag fic, i'm going to be proud of committing to a vibe and writing something really intense and atmospheric like nothing else i've ever written before. when i finish va fic in approximately a YEAR, i'm going to be really fucking proud of it, too, because the scope of it is probably the most intimidating thing i've ever undertaken. i am still not thinking about how long it is going to be! that's none of my business right now!

What's one story you wished you had expanded on, or spent more time writing?

in some ways i never would have finished the tools to rebuild were it not for the deadline of the big bang, and i was really in the fucking weeds with it, but i do wonder how it would have turned out if i had more time. on the flip side, it's a tight 20k that got a lot of great comments on the pacing despite knowing that if i wrote it now it would probably be twice as long, so there is something to be said with working under pressure and being efficient with the story that you want to tell. i am, at the end of the day, still incredibly proud of it and it's one of my fics that has resonated the most with people, and that's all i can ask for, really.

What's your favorite trope of all time?

YEARNING. REPRESSION. having so many feelings you don't know what you're supposed to do with them!!! i am always a sucker for things like Getting Back Together; i love when things are messy, i love breaking up and making up, or finding your way back to the one that got away, because it's all about the weight of history, about how you can never escape That One Person because they're lodged into your dna even if it takes you twenty years to figure it out. not soulmates except fuck you it kind of is, but because we made it that way, because the universe didn't gift wrap us for each other but we still made ourselves into this. is it any wonder the old man yaoi with the demonstrated implicit trust and emotional intimacy despite their blatant commitment issues have rotted my brain so severely

If you could be the main character in one of your stories, what one would it be?

so my initial answer was a vehement absolutely none of them, but i guess i could be george in yarn au. i could own a whimsical little yarn store without you putting a gun to my head about it, probably.

Do you think you'll ever stop writing for the fandom you're currently most active in?

i mean i didn't expect to be writing generation kill fanned fiction in the year of our lord 2025 yet here i am haha. so while i'm sure everything will continue ebb and flow as they always do, the things that take root in your brain never truly leave you. when inspiration strikes, it strikes.

You've been given a book deal. What story are you publishing from your collection?

same response as @bropunzeling that, imo, if you can file the serial numbers off of a story and publish it without some heavy fucking editing, there are problems afoot. the reason i love fic is to play with the characters that already exist, and that means that if i take those characters out of it, the story shouldn't be able to cohere because it would be a totally different story with totally different people. if you put a different person in that situation, you have a whole new situation on your hands. even in an AU, i think you should stand on the shoulders of canon. i want to be able to recognize the characters, not write something where you can just copy and paste a name and everything still make perfect sense, you know?

that was actually one of the hardest parts of dakar au, because who the FUCK is simon riley divorced of all of his trauma from canon? how can i give him a believable amount of trauma in the setting i put him in that would get him even 10% of the amount of fucked up he is? how can i still keep him recognizable when you strip away almost everything that makes him him? it was a really fun process, and asking those questions is the whole point, to me. that's what it's all about, baby!

Top writing tip for others?

stop worrying about everyone else and just write it, man. if you want it to exist, be the one to make it happen. the people who fuck with it will find it and no one else matters. there is really no better feeling in this world than creating a connection with someone who really gets your niche little passion project. that's where real friendship is made, and that's what matters when it comes to fandom.

tagging @alethialia @kritischetheologie @elementalmoments if you wanna play :)

[pizzleyanked]

hi Cat, can you share your thoughts/criticisms of DATV? i think the game is gonna flop.

hey nonners, idk. this is a complicated question. i mean, game's not even out yet so it's unfair to pass judgment on it. i can only judge bioware's approach to pre-release marketing. and i got a lot of thoughts on that.

honestly i think it will be a perfectly serviceable game and technically it will run well (i mean, it has been steam deck verified which tells me that performance was a big concern for devs). i don't think quality has much bearing on the love people can have for a game. and vice-versa. the people who are hyped to oblivion and want to preorder will like it. the people who hate it bc it has poc and queer and disabled characters will still hate it. people who analyze the game's mechanics and writing will dissect the game and be predisposed to finding things they dislike. over time opinions will mellow out and we'll see how the veilguard will be remembered.

i can't trust bioware to make an rpg that i will want to play after their last failures. different people will differ on where the string of failures started. from a quality standpoint my line is dragon age 2. me3 to me failed to deliver on the promise of the first 2 me games save for shining exceptions like the citadel dlc and javik. from a numbers standpoint the last successful game was inquisition which won goty in 2014 due to a serious lack of competition mostly, especially since witcher 3 was pushed back to 2015 (which pains me personally as that put it directly in bloodborne's path to goty in that year). thing is bioware seems to be doing all they can to avoid a flop. veilguard is bioware's hail mary after a string of failures. they are ditching the ea app to capture as many people as possible. the combat has fully careened into action, and although they keep telling us these will be the best companions ever, really, guys, the gameplay is more and more focused on the protagonist alone. the crpg roots of the series are getting cut down to attract a broader audience. perhaps at the cost of ostracizing some like me who enjoy the party-based, party-building mechanics like me.

how well this will go i don't know. on one hand i think bioware has been historically bad at showing the full scope to new and returning players. empress celene has been haunting the edges of the world since origins. the full grasp of her character is locked behind books. afaik some companions have been introduced already in supplemental materials. this sort of move didn't go well for ff15. on the other i think this game missed its window. the gaming landscape of today isn't the same as it was in 2014, and in 2014 the skyrim at home open world design was already outdated. i've been hearing about the crpg renaissance since 2016. i accompanied it. it remained a niche part of gaming until it didn't: baldur's gate 3 released last year to audience and critical acclaim. going forward i expect mainstream rpgs to take cues from bg3. and the mission based almost extraction shooter-esque design that veilguard seems to have might not land as well in 2024 as it would have in 2020.

eta: or it could go well, idk. morrowind and final fantasy were bethesda's and squaresoft's hail maries and saved those studios.

right now the marketing has missed the mark on me. it is patronizing and seemingly needs to punch down the previous da games to prop this one up. it concerns me that the game may be releasing in 2 months (as per jeff grubb) and we quite frankly haven't seen shit. just bioware telling us that trust me, these companions are deep. trust me, the combat is good. trust me, the city built on slave labor is totally the coolest one you've seen. everyone copies fromsoftware but they don't seem to learn to drop a trailer and shut up until they got more things of substance to show. and this isn't just a bioware issue.

[devilselbowhq]

THE WILD & WONDERFUL APPALACHIA WELCOMES... maisie o'halloran as written by ghost ( he / it ).

✱ affiliated with SILVER LINING MILITIA (SOLDIER) ✱ working as a CASHIER AT REMEDY ROOTS ✱ has taken up residence in BURNINGTON ✱ born on FEBRUARY 16th ( 20 ) ✱ identifying as NON-BINARY ( THEY / THEM ) ✱ known to be COMPETENT, STRAIGHTFORWARD, PRACTICAL, RESOURCEFUL, ACTION-ORIENTED ✱ also know to be COCKY, DEFIANT, IMPATIENT, INSENSITIVE, ARGUMENTATIVE ✱ portrayed by BELLA RAMSEY

DIGGING DEEPER.

TW : death, parental death, violence

chapter 1 ( i was born wild ) : in a makeshift medic tent in the one of the rural areas of the new california republic, no civilisation for miles and miles and miles, maisie o’halloran was born to what was left of an elite unit from the european commonwealth. while they can't remember much from their earlier years, their home had always been focused on people, rather than any specific place. their mother, niamh, had been assigned by the commonwealth she served to canvas the threat the united states of america might pose to the european commonwealth while it was in the midst of its own peace defence on its borders and elsewhere; at least, georgie, one of the younger ones in the squad that would become their family—and, eventually, the compounding of loss maisie would have to deal with in their short life—had told them. he'd kept mentioning ‘the united states of america’, and when questioned about it, because these states didn't seem united at all, he would always correct himself to meaning the ncr—”that's where you were born!”—the rot, and the ear. georgie had always fancied himself a storyteller, mentioned on many occasions that he'd wanted to become a historian before he was drafted. he's the reason maisie knows exactly what it sounds like when bullets penetrate flesh in rapid succession, at the young age of five years old.

chapter 2 ( lessons from scars ) : perhaps they never got formal education: maisie's grammar is spotty, they don't give a shit about where a comma might go, and maths are only important when calculating angles and external ballistics. what's a book in the wild when most of your life is focused on survival, when much of your energy is burnt being trained by the elite unit that is your family, when there's long periods of lack of civilisation from where you can even get a book from? no, there wasn't any formal education, but that doesn't mean maisie is uneducated. they learned quite quickly how to hold a handgun and to ground themself before shooting lest they injure themself from the recoil. they learned early how to read people, trust their gut, anticipate hostility in microexpressions and mere muscle twitches—“there's no honour, mercy, or dignity in death, maisie, because you'll be dead”. they learned which berries are edible, how to tie knots that'll last, how to rock faces efficiently and quickly, how to build a fire and construct a shelter, how to study and hunt with both guns and bow and arrow. and the most important lesson they've learned is that when death comes, it comes hard, fast, and violently, and when it arrives you fight with everything you have, you keep your head on straight, and push the grief out until you're in a place where pausing won't get you killed.

chapter 3 ( valleys of blood ) : every year of their life saw loss of some sort, and at ten years old, their elite family had been reduced to a party of two. at ten years old, maisie had already seen so many people die, people whom had taught them their own skills, shared their stories, their laughter, their hugs and their food and drink. heroes, all of them, all returned to the soil one after the other. but real horror came for them when they'd gone on patrol with their mum, and in the distance they'd heard a cry for help, further into the forest, in the twilight dark of dusk. their mum had urged them to stay back, keep their rifle at the ready, and flashlight in hand, niamh disappeared into the darkness, light fading into the distance. the silence was broken only by crickets, and if you'd asked maisie, they'd been waiting there for hours—in reality, it had barely been five minutes. maisie could see the whites of their mum's wide eyes as she came storming out of the dark, roaring at them to run—if the fear in her eyes wasn't enough to terrify maisie, it was the order: their mum hadn't told them to run since they were small, since they were competent enough with a rifle to hit a target from over a mile away. and for all their training, all the death and conflict they'd already experienced in their young life, nothing had prepared maisie for the ice of fear rooting them to the spot as a giant shadow surged from the shadows behind their mother's running form and slammed her down with a crack. maisie doesn't know if the impact killed her, or the mauling thereafter, but the next thing they knew, shots rang through the crisp air, high calibre rounds ripping through the flesh of the creature one after the other, the cracking sound of it loud enough to intermittently drown out the screaming of their mother before the enormous creature ran off. the last surviving member of the unit the european commonwealth, dante winters, would walk past them to kneel down next to their mother—she's fine, she's fine, she's fine. they could hear the wet rasp of their mum's voice say words that were hard to make out. they didn't realise dante had picked them up and started taking them away until their mother had disappeared in the darkness.

chapter 4 ( like a legion sworn ) : for years, maisie relived that night in nightmares, waking up screaming. from that moment, dante never let them out of his sight. their mission had changed. they were no longer a european commonwealth unit reporting back to home, they were two people just trying to survive and find meaning in the world, them parentless and him childless. it wasn't until they met santiago muñoz that maisie, with his guidance, could start giving every experience in their life a place. the nightmares became less, no longer waking up in terror, and while they never went away, maisie was given enough tools to give them a space. with santiago came uncle lindsay. initially, uncle lindsay came across to them as a stoic hardass who hadn't smiled a day in his life, but with the exchange of information, not just of the years that maisie had been alive to experience, but also those long before they were even born, this strange man had hugged them so tight maisie thought he might just break their ribs.

chapter 5 ( push it to the limit ) : maisie knows exactly what they can do, burnington is too small a place to hold down a kid that was born and raised in the wilds of north america, raised like a soldier, and loved and protected like something priceless by people intensely dangerous. their explosive energy, big mouth, and cocky attitude makes friends and enemies alike, and their confidence means it doesn't leave room enough to not slag off people they probably shouldn't be. rowdy, some would call them. energetic, if they want to be kind about it. fucking brat, perhaps a valid critique. maisie o’halloran is starting their twenties with all the skills and competences of a well-trained, veteran elite soldier and the brash, tempestuous bravado of a kid that's still long from being a proper adult. just these two things together, they're the cause for every one of lindsay o’halloran's grey hairs. maisie would argue that they keep him young.

EXTRAS.

( CONNECTIONS. )

santiago muñoz ( uncle / guardian )

lindsay o’halloran ( uncle / guardian )

dante winters ( uncle / guardian )

delia albright ( aunt )

falina “claymore” roux ( aunt)

( MEDIA. )

pinterest

soundtrack

( QUICK STATS. )

mbti : estp

enneagram : 7w8

moral alignment : chaotic neutral

temperament : choleric-sanguine

greek god : alke

zodiac : aquarius sun ; aries moon ; aries rising

[isagrimorie]

20 questions for fic writers

Thank you @curator-on-ao3 for tagging me!

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

48 stories

2. What's your total Ao3 word count?

134,192 words

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Person of Interest, Life (NBC), Firefly, Doctor Who, Glee, Legacies, Fringe, Ranma 1/2, Once Upon a Time, Bunheads, Burn Notice, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Conversations with Dead People (Life, Sameen Shaw )- Shaw can see dead people.

Definitely, Maybe (Person of Interest, Root/Shaw) - It starts with a phone call.

Runtime Issues - (Person of Interest, Root/Shaw) - Root's on a deadline but she keeps running into one consistent problem.

Personal Day (Sameen Shaw, Root/Shaw, Person of Interest) - Shaw is taking a personal day, she's had it all planned. Cooked meal and Bear. But best laid plans are always thwarted.

Dodging Bullets - (Person of Interest/Mr & Mrs Smith Fusion, Root/Shaw) - On paper, Sam Shaw is a successful New York doctor in a stable relationship with a successful software consultant. In reality, Shaw is a Government assassin, a little bored with her stable relationship until a new mission starts shaking things up.

5. Do you respond to comments?

If I do, as much as possible, even though sometimes I feel repetitive thanking people for the comments.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think it has to be Metamorphosis. Person of Interest -- a little bit of an AU to the finale. Proposing what if Harold didn't make it. But Shaw was there and Root!Machine to see him off.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think it might be the Life (NBC)'s Gethsemane.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I don't think so. At least, I hope not!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I am not confident writing smut, I only did it once in Life. I don't think I moved it from livejournal to ao3.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I do! I love crossovers! There's the one where Dani Reese and Sameen Shaw are estranged twins, unfortunately unfinished called Gemini. And a Person of Interest/Elementary crossover.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I... don't think so. As far as I know but I would welcome it!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Oh, I tried but I don't think I've ever finished one. TBF I hardly finish any fic.

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

This is so hard to answer because this is... what you would call seasonal. Right now in Trek 90s phase, it's Janeway/Seven. Although I am a multishipper sometimes Janeway/Chakotay sneaks in.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

The list is waaay too long. But there's Dodging Bullets, the Mr and Mrs Smith but Root/Shaw, the aforementioned Gemini. The Person of Interest/Elementary crossover.

The Hope/Lizzie Legacies AU where Lizzie decides to stay in season 4 and help Hope during the time Lizzie split from Hope.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I do get the character voices right.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I seldom finish a story, unfortunately.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

If I find someone who is fluent, I would want to consult with them.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

It was an anime called Zenki. It was written in a mix of Tagalog and English.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

There are several:

New Ground (Doctor Who, Rose Tyler) - Rose on Parallel Earth AU before it was jossed by Journey's End.

Six months after Norway, she's moving on and letting go.

The first multi-chaptered story I've ever finished.

Human Landscape (Life, Dani Reese centric)

the sound of the city tonight / keeps my dreams and my demons alive. Reese and Crews solve the murder of two young drug dealers.

The longest fic I've ever written, a Reese-centric story with case-of-the-week elements.

I'm still proud of this because I started the story with an idea and it went through as planned. It's also the first I wrote in a stream-of-consciousness style that would be the style for most of my Life story.

I had such a strong sense of who Dani Reese was and I was gripped with the desire to write Dani's prequel story. And I'm glad I did!

Metamorphosis - (Person of Interest, Harold Finch, Sameen Shaw. Finale AU-ish.)

Once, long ago, when he realized the Machine had handpicked Sameen Shaw to join their team, he found the notes Dr. Shaw’s Chief Resident wrote. It struck Harold how much of a small-minded fool the doctor was to let such a talented and brilliant woman like Shaw go. She was his doctor and he trusted no other doctor than Miss Shaw.

I just re-read this story and I am pretty proud of this. The title is from the Philip Glass music playing in the finale. I love Finch and Shaw's friendship, so I wanted them to have more scenes.

Also, I was never that convinced Harold escaped unscathed. He either escapes but as trade-off, he gets his father's illness, or he doesn't escape.

“I can’t move you, Harold.” There was an edge of frustration in her words. “If I’d made it here sooner–” Shaw never needed comfort nor assurances but Harold regretted… He regretted too many things. Over her shoulder, Harold fancied he saw a woman in Root’s form with a black belted coat. She smiled at him sadly and placed a ghostly hand on Shaw’s shoulder. Sharp and still. Harold placed his hand over hers, his hand was sticky from his own blood. “I understand, Miss Shaw.” Shaw finally stopped moving. She looked at him for a long, long moment, and then she nodded. Harold watched as she wiped her hands on her pants, pulled his glasses from his face, and cleaned them. Miss Shaw's features came to sharp focus when she returned them. And then she sat next to him.

Tagging: If anyone would love to participate, please feel free! Just pick it up and move it along!

And I'd like to tag a few names but please don't feel obligated to participate in this if you don't want to!

@terapsina, @tea-earl-grey, @coraniaid, @explosionshark, @mihrsuri,

[iteh3xael]

Witchcraft Ask Game

What drew you to witchcraft?

Old bestie in HS was into it (we bonded over Charmed) and then had a REALLY weird series of run ins once I graduated college and did some psychedelics. Remembered I used to lucid dream and was fascinated by the Christian Book of Revelation as a CHILD and that kind of all merging into the queer pagan I find myself today.

2. Do you follow a specific witchcraft tradition, or are you eclectic?

I have a whole theory on DND and how witchcraft plays into that and how we basically are imbued with the power of our namesake and then the rest of kind of based on whatever you're exposed to and I'm not saying crystals will straight up give you super powers but like, runes have meaning and maybe don't fuck the stalachtite

3. Do you believe in the Threefold Law or karma in witchcraft?

There's something to be said about consequences to actions and the 2nd Law of Newton (equal and opposite) and 1st Law of Thermo (energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transferred) that definitely applies. FMA also taught me about fucking with life and death magic and you gotta be REALLY careful with what you ask for because the universe is VERY finicky.

4/5. What advice would you give to someone who feels called to witchcraft but is unsure where to begin?

Gonna self plug a post here about things I wish I knew when I started (everyone actually practices to a degree, it's just become really archaic to exist in a present fashion while also embracing the wonderment of things like dreams.

6. Have you ever had a dream or vision that felt prophetic?

Used to! Don't as much but I think it's a skill. Some people naturally have premonitions through dreams and mine are more like vivid intrusive thoughts that play through my head and I have to figure out which is actually useful.

7. What do you think of Aleister Crowley?

Ngl had to Google who that was because I don't really follow many contemporary people and knew he was a "magician" of sorts but I don't take any stock in orgs like the Free Masons or even Satanism even if I think there's probably ~something~ there. He was clearly smart enough to make it work but idk how much is just really smart social engineering (he was a spy, afterall) and a smattering of esoteric networking that led to him being fairly successful at whatever his craft was

8. Do you think witches can create their own deities?

So... I think witches occupy a kind of weird realm/dimension (on my scale it's on like, the 6th degree akin to the "inverted" dimension where we would think of them being akin to IRL angels) and so our calling is rooted in whatever incarnation pulls from original sources. Our names have power and "create" the source of inspiration (deities, gods, spirits, w/e) hence why we "choose" them when "coming out" as a way of embracing our sense of servitude to a higher being outside of our general sense of self.

9. How do you feel about people worshiping deities from pop culture?

Sure, why not lol.

10. What’s your opinion on the idea that "all magic comes with a cost"?

Ohhh yes yes yes. Hence why I affirm that people need to be serious about their approach to science as magic is just when science and art come together perfectly (think of siren's and their songs, beauty inspiring wars, love SAVING people).

11. What’s the weirdest thing that’s ever happened to you during a spell?

For years, I had never done a spell with another person before and kind of just fucked around and using objects that I figured would have SOME use, I just didn't know what for.

For instance: there was this ridiculous rubber ducky I got from some rando woman at a hotel from a work thing I was at in bumfuck Pennsylvania where she basically FORCED it upon me after I literally said no and tried to give it back but they were SO insistent despite being a complete stranger. I HATE having useless shit and usually just throw it away immediately but I didn't want to be rude so I threw it into my bag and kind of forgot about it.

Anyway, fast forward to me visiting my old bestie (mentioned prior) talking about The Craft while I'm unpacking my bag and how I never could seem to figure out spells while at the SAME time, being like "Oh hey! Do you want this rubber ducky?"

They flipped their shit because, there is a VERY particular spell about rubber duckies and not just finding one, a portion of the spell reads:

"...presented by hand, in a way that's select

a peculiar find, to earn the craft's respect"

and since then we did a spell about keys that still kind of haunts me to this day so uh... be careful y'all lol

12. If you could cast one spell right now, what would it be and why?

A relationship healing spell. Any help would be greatly appreciated. <8

13. What’s your belief on the afterlife, and how does it affect your spiritual practices?

I definitely think there's another realm out there and I try to just be present with what comes my way since this reality is already full of surprises. I really don't do any major spirit work because I kind of have a deep seated respect where the sense of awe is a bit terrifying so I just kinda see where it takes me and ask mindful questions.

14. What’s your opinion on the importance of connecting with the land in witchcraft?

Plz touch more grass lol If the elements of the Earth (AT LEAST FOUR of them aren't present when approaching a situation, you might need to recenter.

15. How do you feel about using magic to influence others?

Whether we like it or not, magic will ALWAYS be used to influence (literally just think of money or words as a concept). We have a duty to be responsible wielders for we are practitioners in a Dark Art that has a reputation for being misconstrued as evil. Embrace all the shades and don't be shy from the glimmers from the light :3

16. What’s your opinion on hexing or cursing?

I would advise against it though my namesake literally deals with them so uh, just be wise.

17. Do you believe in spiritual psychosis?

I want to say yet but honestly unsure of the full scope of the question so... TBD?

[thisdreamplace]

Dream, I trust you a lot, and sorry for dumping my mess in here but... I feel like I'm going through a lot lately and I'm confused as for where I stand. I feel like this year, a lot has been happening that has never happened before. For example, I feel like I've been getting my ego hurt a lot. I was someone who always believed a lot in myself (in my ego) and for example, lovewise, whenever I liked someone I always had this belief of "anyone I want, wants me" and it was always true for me. This year though, that belief has been challenged and I have been humbled real good.

I have a friend who's been triggering me a lot, not that she is doing anything, I have found I feel some sort of envy that I dislike, but I can't deny it. Something happened recently where a guy I had a crush on (it was not serious AT ALL, just a little crush), no one knew except for her and myself, and then we found out he liked my friend and not me. She started feeling guilty about it, but I was not angry at all (why would I be). Now I am angry because she's been pitying me and trying to "make me feel good" about something I didn't feel bad about. I feel ashamed? Because I can imagine her telling other people about it and pitying me because this guy likes her and not me, and that bothers me lmao.

Also about the envy, I feel like she's so effortless and everything is so easy for her, I know that I am always planning and overthinking and things do not seem to go my way, so it bothers me how she doesn't even try. It's funny because I have been on a spiritual path where it is constantly repeated that there is not effort required and then the proof (my friend) shows up in my reality and I am triggered af by it.

I don't want to feel this envy towards someone I am supposed to love and care about. She's been a very good friend and I'm feeling like a bitch. I just can't be happy when she's happy and I don't know how to change it. I feel like a horrible person.

And about the guy, I cried, not because of him, but because I feel like this year I have been put through so many moments where I am constantly being rejected, I don't know how to deal with it because I had never been rejected and I know we repeat "there is nothing to change, things happen in a perfect way" but then we also have revision. So I don't know what to do. I don't know how to differentiate acceptance from internalizing things that make me feel horrible. I feel victimized haha, and I feel like there's nothing I can do for me, except accepting victimhood. Omg I swear I am so confused and I feel so trapped 😭

hello <3

i'm glad you feel you can trust me. thanks for coming here to open up about your experiences and how you feel <3

i think that its veryyyy normal to go thru this phase in life where suddenly you're triggered by things that weren't triggering before. think about it, its really easy to not be triggered when everything goes well. and when its suddenly not going well... well when we easily waver like that, it shows that maybe we werent as confident, or secure, or trusting, etc etc as we thought. it allows us to deal with shadows that were buried deep, so that we can continue with experiencing the pure love and abundance that is there for us beyond those painful illusions.

comparison is the root of so much pain. that envy you feel is normal so give yourself a bit of grace here. we've all felt envious or jealous before in our lives and thats okay. the issue here is simple the way you see her and the way you compare yourself to her as if shes the pinnacle of success. but shes just living her life, and through that youre able to see where your own self beliefs are.

the thing is that if we can see people's wins as wins for ourselves and not something that works against us, we are able to manifest more lovely things for ourselves. here's some affirmations you could go off of to help you begin shifting your perspective: there is so much X for everyone ! including me ! (example: there is so much love for everyone, including me)

take it slow and let urself feel it out, bc trying to push down ur feelings never helps, it only encourages them to grow. so let yourself feel how you feel but don't settle with it. make the decision to, slowly but surely, shift your perspective on how things have been unfolding and begin anew.

its okay to feel like a victim for a little bit, to let yourself be engrossed in the drama and melancholy of that, sometimes its what we need. the thing is that you don't stay there forever, you give yourself a moment to feel it all out and you get to decide when you want to start again as someone who is choosing to actively believe in themselves and in their lives. i would say forget about revision here, bc revision can be more like an attempt at control when youre feeling so low, and when youre feeling that low and out of control, its best to surrender and accept where youre at so that you can move forward.

i hope this helps in some way ! <3

xo

[intern-seraph]

Hello. I hope you don't mind me asking. There aren't many Jewish people in my country and there never have been. I know very little of Jewish people and so do most of my countrymen. Because of the recent events I have had this, not even a conversation, just an offhanded remark, many times with many people: Why is it that the Jewish people are so hated? Why do so many people hate you? We genuinely don't understand or know. We have no hate for you, you are just people we don't know much about and don't really think about. Of course, we know about the holocaust and all that, but where does all this hate originate from? I'm honesty and genuinely confused. I'm really sorry that so many people hate you. I wish it weren't so.

<3 The confusion is understandable, and the answer likely won't help clarify much, because it's rather, uh, depressing. The following is a cursory summary of what, to my knowledge, are in the roots of antisemitism in its various waves and forms. This is the Wikipedia page on the history of antisemitism — yes, Wikipedia isn't the most reliable, but they cite their sources and this page has links to more detailed pages on antisemitism in specific regions and time periods— if you want to get in the dirt of it all. There are some parts I disagree with re: some of the descriptions of "New antisemitism", but the purpose of the page is to document it as an idea, not as an endorsement or as approval.

There is no reason, at least nothing actually rational or defensible (which is the nature of bigotry: it's irrational). It's because we're inconvenient (we're in the way, we're in the wrong place, we've become too successful where we live. which ties into...), we refuse to assimilate (we have maintained our traditions for thousands of years without giving in to larger cultural pressures to blend in, and thus disappear as a people), we were legally forced into certain roles that made us targets (the greedy Jew stereotype can be traced back to and was reinforced by Jews only being allowed to work as moneylenders and other money-related jobs considered "unsuitable" for Christians in Europe). Early antisemitism, back in the classical era, was ethnic. After Christianity, religious (but this cannot, of course, be separated from Jews being seen as a separate people (if people at all), so there was definitely ethnic components as well). When secularism started catching on, they latched on to more of the nonreligious canards ("Jews run the world", "Jews control the money", etc), but still linked Jewishness to being demons. Eventually it became racial (Jews weren't white or black but something Else (and certainly not full humans)).

These all still factor in to modern antisemitism — you've no doubt seen Zionist Occupied Government-type canards recently or accusations of (((Zionists))) running Hollywood or the banks or what-have you, most Jews have some story of being asked by a gentile "Where are your horns?", and you'd be hard-pressed to find a white supremacist who actually thinks Jews are white (they don't think we're human, really). Something consistent you'll see is the belief that Jews are foreigners no matter how long they've lived somewhere — before WWII, Jews in Europe were often told to "go back to Palestine", in fact. You can find photos of graffiti saying this exact phrase dating back to then. Those Jewish communities had been there for centuries by that point, and they considered these countries their homes. The feeling was not, of course, mutual.

I also hope that things change. Maybe one day, we'll be able to tell our children that this was the past, and now we are safe rather than safer. One can only hope.

[angelo-the-whistleblower]

Read this: (Part 3) The Dialogue Between Angelo (POW) and Eva Mendes (@evamendes) -

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): “You still haven't answered my question, will you defend me?”

Angelo (POW): "Why do you need me to defend you? You have many slanderous friends to do that for you."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "My slanderous friends are like unruly teenagers, you have to tolerate their insults and not let it affect you."

Angelo (POW): "As long as they stay away from me, I don't mind it at all. Slanderers exist all over the world, they can't control their envy, and their tongues. Once the envy begins, guess what follows next? What is the next logical step after envy? It is slander. If they don't envy me, they don't slander me. Now you know that envy is the root of all their evil slander."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "It is true, a person who doesn't envy you wouldn't spend so much time slandering you. You are the target of envious people. A lot of women slander you as well."

Angelo (POW): "Let me guess, the women who slander me are all adulterous women, correct? They sleep with ten different men while claiming to be married and monogamous. Any woman that slanders me while being adulterous has lost any credibility."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "I want to change the subject now, can we stop talking about the low-life criminals I surround myself with in Hollywood?"

Angelo (POW): "Well, you started it. You treat low-life criminals like world leaders, that's the problem, they are not world leaders. They can't even lead their neighborhood to success, what do you think they will do with an entire country? You have to open your eyes and see the low-life ignorant criminals you surround yourself with. They all act like they are world leaders, let me give you a reality check — no, they are not. They can't even write a speech properly."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "Alright, alright, they are not world leaders and I must acknowledge that fact. I sit with slothful low-life criminals who spend their days slandering the righteous people who achieve things they couldn't achieve. Are you happy now?"

Angelo (POW): "I'm not particularly happy about it, it's just a fact and I appreciate that you acknowledge their incompetence and their stupidity."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "Okay, now tell me, what am I supposed to do? You refused to make love to me and you refuse to meet me. You refused to speak to me on the phone. What should I do to get access to your support? I need you to defend me."

Angelo (POW): "You don't have to do anything. I will defend you, but I have a condition. If you accept it, I will agree to defend you."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "What is the condition?"

Angelo (POW): "You can't speak to me or see me face to face until 2045, twenty years later. Do you agree with this condition?"

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "But why such a long time? I have to wait twenty years to meet you? 2045 is a long time."

Angelo (POW): "Yeah, tell me about it. You know what else is a long time? Tolerating your dumb ass team. You probably don't know it, but I will never agree to sit with them. I don't tolerate fakes and frauds in my proximity. Make sure you tell them I said that."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "Okay, I will accept your condition. Now tell me, how much will you give me?"

Angelo (POW): "I will not give you a dollar of my wealth. You will tell your brother Carlo Mendez (@cmendez78) that I will make him the leader of the Mendes household. He will be making sure you never use that money to lose your soul. Don't forget that money can lead you to lose your soul and end in hell in the afterlife. This is the apocalypse and you need a protector."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "You think my brother Carlo will protect me from losing my soul during the apocalypse?"

Angelo (POW): "Yes, Eva! During the apocalypse, he will be the leader of the Mendes household. I will agree to give the $2 billion wealth to your brother Carlo because you have proven to me that you are stupid and unworthy of this wealth. You sit with stupid people who slander the very person helping you save your soul during this apocalypse. I have judged your behavior and made my decision. Your brother Carlo will be responsible for your wealth."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "Wait a minute, I just realized there are two conditions: first, you refuse to meet me until 2045 and secondly, you made my brother Carlo the owner of my wealth. That makes it two conditions."

Angelo (POW): "If you say so, alright, it's two conditions. I hope this will help you sleep well at night and make you less worried. I wish you well, Eva. My refusal to meet you is your fault, not mine. You only have yourself to blame. I'm tired of talking to you now."

Eva Mendes (@evamendes): "Wait, when will I get that money?"

Angelo (POW): "You will get it as soon as we make our first profits. You have to wait two years until 2027. Farewell, Eva! Also, I'm in a relationship with Gal Gadot now, so try your best to control your jealousy, if you can. You did this to yourself — if you feel jealous and feel ignored by me, remember you are the only person to blame, and not me."

[energy-healing-with-jen]

TODAY'S LEARNING Inherited Limitations: How Family Narratives Shape Our Self-Perception

"In our family, we're just not good with money."

"Creative careers aren't practical—we're not that type of people."

"Everyone in our family struggles with their weight."

These statements might sound familiar. They're examples of family narratives that quietly shape our beliefs about who we are and what we're capable of achieving. These inherited limitations—passed down through generations like family heirlooms—can restrict our potential without us even realizing it.

The Inheritance of Belief

Family narratives begin forming in our earliest years. As children, we absorb the spoken and unspoken messages about our capabilities, worthiness, and place in the world. Research in developmental psychology shows that by age seven, many core beliefs about ourselves are already established.

These narratives take root in various ways:

Direct statements: "Math isn't our strong suit" or "We've always been anxious people"

Observed behaviors: Watching parents avoid financial decisions or shrink from social situations

Family stories: Tales of failure, struggle, or "knowing one's place" that become cautionary legends

Emotional reactions: Sensing disapproval when stepping outside family norms

What makes these inherited beliefs so powerful is that they operate beneath conscious awareness. We don't question them because they feel like fundamental truths about who we are.

The Cost of Inherited Limitations

The price we pay for unchallenged family narratives can be steep:

Foreclosed opportunities: Avoiding entire career paths or experiences based on family beliefs

Self-fulfilling prophecies: Unconsciously creating the very outcomes our family narrative predicted

Generational patterns: Perpetuating cycles of limitation by passing these beliefs to our children

Identity constraints: Defining ourselves within narrow parameters that feel "safe" but restrictive

Consider Maria, who grew up hearing that "people like us don't go to college." Despite being academically gifted, she never considered higher education until a teacher challenged this narrative. The limiting belief had nearly determined her entire future.

Breaking the Cycle

The good news is that inherited limitations can be identified and overcome. Here's how to begin:

1. Become aware of your family narratives

Start noticing the "truths" you've accepted about yourself that might actually be family beliefs. Listen for phrases like "In our family..." or "People like us don't..." These often signal inherited limitations.

2. Question the evidence

Ask yourself: "Is this actually true, or just something I've been told?" Look for counter-examples—people with similar backgrounds who've broken free from these limitations.

3. Explore the origin story

Understanding where a family narrative began can reduce its power. Many limiting beliefs started as adaptations to difficult circumstances generations ago but no longer serve a purpose.

4. Create new evidence

Deliberately take small actions that contradict your limiting beliefs. Each success becomes evidence against the inherited narrative.

5. Develop a new story

Consciously craft alternative narratives about who you are and what's possible. "Our family is becoming more financially savvy with each generation" reframes the story while acknowledging the past.

The Ripple Effect of Liberation

When we challenge our inherited limitations, we don't just change our own lives—we create new possibilities for future generations. By consciously examining what we've inherited and choosing which beliefs to keep or discard, we can transform family narratives from limitations into launchpads.

The most powerful gift we can offer the next generation isn't protection from challenge but the example of questioning inherited beliefs and defining ourselves on our own terms.

Our ancestors did the best they could with the awareness they had. Now, with greater understanding of how beliefs shape outcomes, we can honor their journey while writing new chapters in our family story—ones filled with expanded possibilities and fewer inherited limitations.

[howsitduud]

BALATRO REVIEW

From what I've observed of myself and other people online who play Balatro, there are 5 critical stages to playing this game:

Exposure: Either you see it doing well on Steam, Switch, or Mobile, or you see it won many awards, including being up for Game of the Year and you want to see what it's all about.

First Run: You get a lay of how the game works, and since this game is based on Poker, you're either familiar enough to not need that much of a tutorial or skilled enough to be able to do well despite the game's quirks.

Dopamine High: If you haven't dropped the game yet, you start to get better and better at the game, seeing what Joker, Tarot, and Planet cards you like playing and developing your playstyle around that. Getting high amounts of chip totals and winning rounds, maybe even runs. You feel unstoppable, as you're finally starting to figure the game out.

Chasing the Dragon: You're desperately trying to chase that high you felt in Stage 3. Even if you could stop thinking about the game, you don't want to stop. Your life is subsumed by one loop: discard cards, play hand, get chips, buy cards, lose run, start over. Your existence is meaningless unless you win the run.

Review: Going on steam and saying: "yeah this game's good."

I will be the first to admit that I don't play Poker that much, if even at all. I do think that it's a good game, but I'm don't like gambling at all. I can meme all day about how 90% of gamblers quit before hitting it big, but I just don't like that casinos and the institution of gambling itself has rooted itself in our culture. That barrier of scumminess that gambling puts on the game Poker was the main reason I didn't want to play any real version of it.

And then I found out about Balatro, Poker but it's a roguelike video game with no microtransactions, no in-game purchases, no distractions, just you and the game. I absolutely love roguelikes, they make games genres I'm otherwise lukewarm about so much better because I can get exponentially better at them, so this game intrigued me a lot. I picke dit up during the Steam Spring Sale and that's how my life changed forever.

It's a very simple game on the surface, you play different blinds where you have to play different poker hands in order to get the required amount of chips in order to beat the blind. Simple stuff, but where it gets crazy is when you introduce the game's 150 different Jokers, all of them impacting the amount of chips you get from each card, the multiplier for each hand, and the amount of money you get each round, as well as the different tarot cards, planet cards, and spectral cards you get from packs or jokers, and those multiply your chip total even more, and multiple cards can even be augmented with foil or holographs, and the joker cards can even be made negative, which gives you a free slot for more jokers, and you see how someone can get addicted to this loop.

What's truly fascinating is how the roguelike nature of the game is such a perfect fit for a game like poker, so every time you play a round and lose, it's random enough to wear you can feel like you got fucked over by the randomness embedded in the game by its nature, but it requires enough skill and knowledge to know where you went wrong and what you need to do for your next run to be successful. Like a wise man once said, "you got to know when to hold em, know when to fold em, know when to walk away, and know when to buy that expensive-ass holographic legendary Joker."

Speaking of, some of the jokers in this game are insanely well-balanced. The common jokers that constantly show up all have good attributes, but don't really excel in any special way, but the higher quality jokers either don't show up often enough for you to account for their existence, or aren't the type of card you need in that instance, so you have to balance the opportunity cost of buying that card and having it take up a Joker slot. This sense of balance doesn't just extend to the Jokers, they also extend to the tarot, planet, spectral and voucher cards. The spectral and voucher cards can be insane run-savers, but they're both balanced by the extreme rarity of spectral cards and the fact that you can only buy one voucher until you beat the boss blind. This rarity makes unlocking and discovering each and every card type and seeing them in your collection so much fun.

What a phenomenal game. I honestly don't have a single problem with this game. This is easily the best card game I've ever played, which I know isn't saying much since the only ones I've played are Uno and PvZ Heroes, but it's a compliment nonetheless.

9/10, the fact that this game that the developers made as a side project, never anticipating it getting over a few thousands downloads, now has a Switch and PS5 port, and multiple awards, including a GOTY nomination is insane.

[motherfunkies]

So anyway I was skating and read through half of this before getting home and forgot my notes but to adress everything I wanted to: I don't think this constitutes as a fandom argument?[this was a response to an addition of a community member :3 anyway, interesting topics] I mean, it's a discussion but until OP called everyone who is a Thea hater idiots I don't think we should worry our heads off about toxic fandom spaces :] so let's just preface this with me saying it by saying i'm super chill either way (unless you misunderstand the game of telephone that is letting your opinion of general fandom get influenced by a few posts saying that some1/user hates Thea as a person and/or doesn't want to see her grow and/or just doesn't like her (because I've seen these posts) with very little analysis and context included and PROCEED to call such people idiots, because, people... Those opinions do not exist in a vacuum.) but yeah.

Look, I hate Thea as much as the next guy. No hard feelings, she's no Riko or insert any other major villian of aftg.

I haven't seen any racism? I kind of forgot she's POC, but I do recognize that both her being a woman and being a person of colour can harbour subconsious biases (and non-subconsious, obviously, but hey c'mon it's the aftg fandom, unless you're on a 2015 twitter group, I haven't seen much of that) but that's about the only argument of her being unfairly hated I see as 100% justifiable.

She's Jean's friend. She's Kevin's companion, one way or the other. She's cruel, but she's a product of the mentality she was forced to adopt.

Those are facts. Honestly a lot of the original post is laying those out. A lot of people who dislike Thea know those things. That's what I like about aftg, the characters are not black and white, at least most.

Seth is a shitty person. He's a shameless bigot and a destructive person. But he's also a friend to many. When he dies, no one dissects all his wrongs and picks him apart for being homophobic and an asshole who hurt people with how the thinks.

But here's where he's different from Thea: he's dead. There's no redemption. And while I think a lot of people think Seth is more worth saving is because a) he's a fox b)he's a more major character c)ingrained misogyny.

Also, he's a bitter, sore loser.

But Thea has a future.

My issue with her is, mainly, that she must have been 18 or around that age when she joined the ravens, and while people much older and much wiser get indoctrinated by cults and caught up in it all, she chose to be complicit in the abuse, through it all, I think I just read her character differently than OP does.

Read also: i'm not saying she had it easy, or had a real choice or right or wrong, I don't know if she did.

In the end, she had to have some priorities and even after leaving the nest, after she had her freedom back, all the practice she could have wanted in her life under her belt, she never did find it out of place? The things that took place in the nest, she wasn't there singing Lalala and holding her hand over her ears everytime someone shouted, she was a grown woman so let's maybe not infantilise her?

At the root of it, many people dislike her because it's hard to see her growing as a character to the point it's unimaginable. She hadn't changed at all since her raven days, she's a true raven in the wild, a success story.

She would have a long way to go, it's not people writing her off, but it's hard to see someone suddenly taking a step in any direction at all, when she's been stagnant for the past however long. But again, she's not stagnant, she's not caught up with the past, she's complicit in abuse. You can't be neutral with these topics. Being indoctrinated to a cult isn't an easy situation to get out of, to say. But you're responsible for your own betterment. "Having been fucked is no excuse for being fucked up" as the icon Kimya Dawson once sung, and I don't think it's that crazy to say that someone who was once a victim isn't excused from self reflection. She is still a victim, I think. But she's not just that.

Also sidenote: I think a lot of people in aftg fandom like to bet on the losing dogs, so to speak, and Thea is both a passive abuser and someone succeeding in life. So yeah there are more Seth apologists in the fandom that Thea. Among the other reasons I listed.

Sidenote #2: this was originally a comment under a community post but those are a pain to navigate and a general inconvienece with the word limit. It's more open for discussion like this, and easier lmao

people on The Internet Dot Com keep being absolute idiots about thea muldani so here is your reminder that she's a ravens success story — she grew up in an environment where she was asked to give her all and engage in incredibly unhealthy practices, but the result of such sacrifice was that she was rewarded for it with US court and a pro team. she was part of a cult and "left" in the sense of gaining physical distance, but all of her experiences reaffirmed that the toxic ravens environment was the most effective way to a successful exy career. it is fucked up that she believes others should go through the same thing in order to be "worthy" or "good enough," but i simply do not understand why so many people look at her and think that she should be crucified for being a representation of a finished, successful raven. especially not if she's unable to recognize abuse in others, which tbqh is something that is very common in cult-like settings. you don't want to look something-that-could-very-well-be-abuse-happening-to-others in the eye, because if they're being abused, then you could potentially be being abused, too, and what do you do with that? do you have any idea how hard it is to come to terms with that reality, especially when you are told day in and day out that this is the only way to get to the top? that this is how you make it in the sport? that someone who is being harmed by the coach or the team captain absolutely deserved it? that people who can't hack it are weak, but you're not weak, you're one of the best, you'll do whatever it takes?

is it extremely shitty that she blames jean for his own sexual assault? absolutely, yes. but she doesn't have the whole picture, and it's clear that jean intentionally deceives her (with the comment about him being fragile/clumsy, etc.) and lets her believe he had more agency in his sexual experiences than he truly did because it's a coping mechanism that also serves the purpose of letting her fill in blanks so he does not have to explicitly tell a lie. besides, if there is any singular raven that both kevin and jean view fondly, wouldn't they want her to believe whatever it took so that she didn't ask too many questions? wouldn't they both want her far removed from the reality of the moriyamas and human trafficking, because her uncovering the truth would put her entire life at risk?

people can have friends that are imperfect or do not understand them completely or that fuck things up sometimes. i get that jean's experiences put people on-guard when it comes to how he interacts with other characters, but god damn. she was his mentor. she taught him everything he knows about being a backliner. she made horrible and judgmental assumptions about his experiences. all of those things can be true at the same time. does she not deserve the opportunity to change upon receiving new information? does she not deserve the ability to take a step back, as ravens are dropping like flies and all eyes are on evermore and the perfect court, to consider that maybe she was a victim in all of this, too? that plenty of people are capable of making it to the top without calling another human being the master and turning a blind eye to the king beating his own men? that maybe kevin and jean and all of them were terribly wronged? why is she the only person in this series who's not allowed to grow as a person by developing a more nuanced understanding of rape and sexual assault and learning how to be a better friend to someone who had no choice?

also someone tried to "gotcha" me by saying thea and jean aren't friends because she uhhhh (checks notes) calls him a teasing nickname and says "i'm going to break your ribs" as though threatening your friends (especially ones you play a contact, violent sport with) is the worst possible offense ever in the same book series that people regularly ACTUALLY fistfight each other and pull knives on one another. i'd argue that these are actually huge indicators that they do like each other, because she's probably one of the only people in the world who he can express himself around and even say things like "i'm not from paris" exasperatedly. you know, like you do when people you care about tease or poke fun at you. those are actually probably some of the most normal interactions jean has pre-TSC, especially as she is not needlessly cruel to him like literally everyone else in the nest is. and not only is thea one of the only people who has any sort of comraderie with him and who makes the effort to see him after his injuries because she cares, but she also makes it past wymack and kevin and renee and neil guard-dogging him. does that seriously mean nothing? do you think renee fucking walker (who was ready to brawl on-sight at evermore) would have let someone like zane waltz into abby's house if kevin said a single negative word about him?

i have seen some incredibly wonderful and nuanced takes about most characters in AFTG, but at the same time, the way thea is treated and criticized in a more severe way than literal murderers in the series for her possibly-willful ignorance is utterly crazy to me.

idk. just some food for thought

[liliumwallichianum]

Dear D,

I hope one day I stop thinking about you. I hope I stop including you in every plan I dream about in the future. I hope one day, if you're really not it for me, that if your name comes up in convo that I don't feel a knot in my heart. Yes my heart not my stomach. Because currently that's where you reside in my body, and I don't know why.

I really don't know what it is about you. Maybe it's that you feel really really safe to my body, mind and soul. Maybe it's that you have class and decency... maybe you're elegant because you went to a snobby prep school or because you are an older brother, or maybe it was because of the way you were raised.. but you are a good and kind man despite your flaws. Maybe it's that you are self-made and successful. Maybe it's because you are actually so cute and cool. You are well-traveled and adventurous. You read a lot and are intelligent... You look handsome like 10/10 times I see you :p

I don't think it's wrong of me to want these things in my future partner. And it almost feels like everyone wants to punish me for wanting you for these things. But it's really hard to explain. It's even hard to explain to you, no matter how many times I've tried. The only thing that I was ever able to articulate to people was the fact that you helped V fix his resume when he lost his job lmfao. But it's all a feeling thats so much more than your kindness and generosity.

It really hurts that we may never be friendly to each other again. It's hard for me to be your acquaintance I hope you understand. I miss texting you so much D. I miss you so much to the point that i'm crying while typing this! I don't understand it at all besides that fact that you really were the coolest person I knew and I miss you. Cool isn't even the adjective I want to describe you with idk. It's all really hard. But I really pray I stop feeling this way about you because I want to move on. I need to put roots somewhere and I'm tired of dreaming about planting them somewhere with you. fuck man this hurts.

but after pain and struggle always comes victory. and i need to keep telling myself this right now because my life is ready to move on and I need to get on board.

I hope you feel my hug and presence any time you are in our hometown <3

goodbye D

-N

maybe I was holding on from a past lifetime or future one....

[thedivinevera]

Nymph

Capitano x fem!reader, with mention of childe x fem!reader, pierro x fem!reader, pantalone x fem!reader and dottore x fem!reader

Established relationship, "everyone loves you but you only love me" trope, pure fluff with a little angst, jelousy.

Tw : Mention of cheating, capitano dreaming about you cheating, Childe and the other 3 having a crush on you, capitano doubting, bad writing, English is not my native language

It's a surprise when the public hear about the prized lover of the capitano many are curious including childe

Reblogs are appreciated thank you ,edited

A lot of rumors have gone around that the 2nd hambinger, the monster has taken a liking to someone. A mysterious person who captures the heart of the strong warrior. A lot of people reject the rumors believing that the monster of the futai will never and ever going to love anyone other than the war and battle it self, a lot of people somewhat believe on does rumors assuming that the person that capture the 2nd harbinger's heart is a strong warrior strong enough to caught Capitano's attention but none of does has an existing proof it's just all rumors after all but nobody knows if it's baseless or it has its root.

The harbingers not including childe know the truth they know about that person but all of them don't have the plan to reveal it to anyone including the curious man, childe. So childe has taken this matter into his own hand. He orders all of his subordinates to know the location where Capitano and his lover might be and when his subordinates come back with a successful answer childe rush to the location. Perfectly the location is something a normal person can't just go but a hambinger even the lowest rank can go and there he saw the truth

In his imagination he expected a warrior not practically scary but someone who has all the proof of battle; scars, burns, etc, he also expected to see them fighting as the location is not exactly a training location but wide enough to become one but all of does imagination just pop when he saw, not a warrior but a beautiful woman à woman who has a like a nymph features beautiful soft and looking very fragile like a porcelain doll that will going to break once it falls, sitting in the lap of his lover, her lover that is contrasting everything she is, a dark warrior who has a lot of blood in his hand, rough gloved hand and the body cover in scratched and dented armor representing the battle he had won and the dried blood from his enemy. Lovers that contrast both once aura. The one who has a heavenly feels and the other one who has the spirit of a cold war

As the day has passed childe has finally and officially met the nymph the beautiful woman in the lap of the hambinger, y/n. She is a kind woman contrasting once again the cold shoulder he had experienced with his lover a warmth spirit who is very optimistic but not delusional a realist but prefers to see the good side of everything such a lovely personality isn't, that might be the reason why you had Capitano in a chokehold as the day has passed a lot of friendly dates and conversations Childe has started to fall in love to you as you are like a walking hope, A light to someone once dark life, A heat that defrosts once frozen heart but yet as the day has past when the dawn has fall and moon has come in the night when childe wake up to the dream that you've had created while he's with you when he already comes back to his sense that Capitano has owned you and you are just an unreachable dream, a gem that is not for his eyes or anyone other than Capitano its self

Capitano whose aware of the crush that his lover received not only from the childe but also on the other rest of the hambinger lord Pierro the first hambinger, dottore and Pantalone and now the childe all of them have fallen into your charming trap just like how he falls first but thankfully he's the one who had your prized heart, but he never learned to his mistake as he let another monster like him fall to your charm. Despite knowing you will never cheat on him there still some doubt in his mind that always fill his head every time that he needs to leave you alone. Every night there will be time he will going to have nightmare a nightmare where there's an image of you enjoying the other man's warm the way you enjoy his warm. As he replays all of the nightmares he has, he remembers the first time he experience this kind of nightmare a nightmare where you are in Pierro's naked chest as he-, there's also the time where he dreams about you leaving him for Pantalone as you had every jewelry in your neck, he has you in the casino while you are in pantalone's lap an- and when he also saw you with dottore playing with you in his lap as he kissed you until- all of his nightmares is full of you having intimate moments with his co-workers he knows it will never gonna be true that all of his nightmares is just a dream and never be a reality but he still can't help it just tell him you love him, free him to this nightmare curse just-“I love you Capitano” a soft voice is heard in the other side of the bed a sleeping y/n is speaking while she is dreaming. Capitano can't help but smile as he heard words of yours, lovingly tone calling his name with does warm mouth of yours. "I love you very much too y/n I don't care if the other man stole you you will always going to come back to me"

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 5/2/2023

some stuff i fucking HATED in this one

listening

new K. Flay AND new LUNA AURA singles out last friday but the thing that kept me company through several walks was this (billboard called it "industrial rager" which seems fine close enough) used for the yellowjackets tv show (something i have not watched and never will).

my brain has really craved repetitive lyrics recently. not sure what that's about. not a repeated lyric, but love one that goes "lipstick on the rifle". spotify

ty discover weekly.

reading

pour one out for the real ones, Vice's leftist gaming vertical Waypoint. if you've ever liked anything about the way i go about these posts you have them to thank. i would say they are the primary influence in the way i try to approach things like "is this a clever subversion that still holds a lot of love for the genre or does this not even know the rules it's trying to break". also a big factor in me going "okay this is what it says it is, this is the marketing copy and press releases" and a work says it's trying to do before assessing whether or not they do it well. may all the staff land softly, elsewhere, paid far more.

“There are a ton of destinations within gaming media that do a great job covering whether a game is worth your money. Instead, we want to focus on telling stories about why people play, and investigating how the games we love and spend so much time with come to be. Whether a game was a commercial success or has a small, dedicated community, we want to raise the conversation and take an in-depth look at the passion, people, and politics that underpin these worlds.” -Austin Walker, editor in chief until last year

the very last thing i read was this review of the new starred wars game, whose early review code sent to journalists was EXTREMELY different than what ended up shipping. this is uncommon but not unheard of, but almost nobody publishes a "null result" review like this one and it's a fascinating breakdown

This piece has, admittedly, gone off the rails, but if this had been a straightforward review, and at the end, I put an italicized section that said “based on 10 hours,” what would you say? If I’d finished the game but confessed at the end that the patched version was importantly different from the one I’d spent my time with, what then? Which review is worth more?

i also read Behind the Sun, Above the Moon, a non-binary scifi/fantasy anthology. i was not impressed with this collection in whole or in parts. it could have benefited from a stronger theme and editorial vision (i'm not actually sure this thing had an editor, now i'm looking closer?)

this has billed itself "a Queer anthology inspired by magic and the cosmos". what i was hoping/expecting this would be: a collection exploring what it means to be nonbinary through the lens of scifi and fantasy. it actually is: an almost completely human-centric collection about people who happen to be non-binary and happen to live in scifi or fantasy settings.

the critical problem is that most of them are very slice-of-life in a fantastic setting as opposed to a short story with uhhhhhh a theme and a point it makes. the worldbuilding, while often interesting, is not integral. 3/9 of these are set in a contemporary setting, and all of them could be set in a contemporary setting without losing much. 3/9 (one overlap) feature a protagonist or deuteragonist who is a cop, and all three of those read very gay assimilation-y/feel very concerned with perfect gay rep.

i don't really expect anyone to be the next o henry here, but none of them are self-contained. not the sort of ambiguous ending in the Ha Ha Im Going To Think About This For The Rest Of My Life way, they all feel like “first chapter of a planned new adult trilogy”.

i love anthologies. i am always rooting for anthologies. i am no stranger to imperfectly written speculative fiction. this one is just kind of nothing? none of these are good or particularly enjoyable examples of the form, either as short stories or as speculative fiction.

i don't actually know what tipped me off to this book, it's been on my overdrive for...two years.

watching

two out of three Magnificent Seven sequels are not worth my time, your time, or anyone else's. i have not bothered to watch Guns of the Magnificent Seven (1969, dir. Wendkos) bc i have a finite amount of time on this bitch of an earth.

i reluctantly have to hand the original some heterosexual rights. that move had a genuinely cute romance that fit in well with a particular character's growth, even if it was lifted whole cloth from Seven Samurai. this will be relevant when we discuss this franchise's hatred for women later.

Return of the Seven/Return of the Magnificent Seven (1966, dir. Kennedy), starring exactly one member of the original seven, is so poorly paced that i paused the film during an "exciting" bullfight, got up to get more snacks, got distracted, and ended up cleaning my kitchen.

there is a great deal of untranslated, un-captioned spanish throughout this movie, including the entire opening sequence. i don't know how i feel about this. on one hand, yeah, fuck them americans, and i would not call the english-language dialogue particularly crucial to your understanding of the plot. on the other hand, what.

as opposed to the original seven all being men who are fairly polite and follow some sort of code, the replacement five are all kind of sleazy? one of them only signs on bc there's an entire village full of women on their own. in other relationships, there is the KERNEL of a really fascinating fucked up family dynamic between the villain and his sons, but we don't even get hints of that until well after the halfway point. this is the original movie but less interesting and sloppier. the camerawork and effects simply are not there.

The Magnificent Seven Ride! (1972, dir. McCowan) is a really, really awful film to watch, and not just if you're a woman. this whole fucking film uses three separate instances of rape or gang rape as plot momentum. if you are not trying to fill out lee van cleef's filmography (only a thing me and @birdcfparadise are insane enough to do) this is actively skippable.

like okay. let’s just walk through the first fifteen minutes. lvc's young, new, nubile wife convinces him to let a kid who robbed a store get off with a warning instead of what lvc really wants to do, send him to jail. in return, the kid shoots lvc, kidnaps lvc's wife, and rapes and kills her on the trail. the movie, which wasn't good to start out with, does not improve from there. like the other sequel i watched, this is the original movie but less interesting and sloppier.

the one interesting choice this film makes: one of the seven is a failed journalist tailing lvc, hoping to get enough life details out of him to write a book. this is a fun period-appropriate twist and this could have been a fun proto-revisionist western/gracefully put the franchise to bed, but here we FUCKING are.

why'd i do this to myself: liked the original, like lvc.

playing

the steam collections i'm sorting things into areworking, bc i forgot i owned Call of Juarez: Gunslinger (2013, developed/published Techland). i do not remember buying this, i assume it was $1.99 in a sale at some point. this is a silly arcade-y first person shooter.

i suspect it will be the kind of thing i play through once and then completely forget about, but i will have a fun ten hours-ish.

this is a personal problem, but the moment you give me a long-distance rifle, i want to play as stealthily and perfectly as possible. (except in fallout, where it is way more fun to charge up to enemies like a very small freight train with a shotgun). this game is simply not built for stealth. this game wants you to move constantly. i do like how enemies are encountered in little groups or knots, and don't come after you if you've cleared out one group and haven't hustled along to the next. enemy AI was simply not very sophisticated in 2013. this gives me time to meander around looking at everything and going "oh i coulda got up on that water tower" or "totally missed that barrel of dynamite".

i like how over the top but un-self-serious it is so far. competent shooter, fewer of the bells and whistles we expect from a FPS these days, but we don't really need to be fucking around with health packs and more than one kind of ammo for a gun. nothing's really annoying me yet and i haven't fallen deeply in love with it, so i don't have a ton of thoughts other than "huh this is a decade old video game with decade-old design sensibilities, which isn't bad just different". stay tuned!

separate thought: i do think that the game's artstyle is about as detailed as i ever want a game to get. nothing ever really needs to be more realistic than this. i do think we peaked in 2013 and what 2013 CPUs could handle. we have better raytracing and particles and whatnot now, but that's at the cost of eerily hyperrealistic games where there is little to no non-signage visual signposting. nothing is guiding your eye through a level, things (consumables, collectibles, etc) are very easy to miss. if video games are an art form you need to pick a thing your game looks like. make a stylistic choice for christ's sake. not this game though. it's doing okay.

making

made some fake meatballs (shut up) bc the giant bag of bargain store brand meatballs i used to practically live on have risen to $20 a bag. angel hair and meatballs are easy to acquire and easy to eat, even if they do generate many dishes to wash.

making my own is not much cheaper, and raw ground meat texture is one of the worst things in the world. plus i had some carrots and oats and lentils to use up anyway. this required more chopping than my hands cared for, even though i bought pre-juilenned carrots and just sort of roughly diced them. the texture is UNSETTLINGLY like real meatballs. that sort of spongy? bouncy? mouthfeel. the taste is, of course, nothing like real meat. they are a little crumbly in actual pasta, but oversaucing whatever noodles are at the back of the pantry will help.

no pics bc they look awful. eating a lot of various lentil sludges lately partly bc i am trying to clean out my pantry before i move, and when i could still afford grocery delivery they frequently gave me green instead of the far superior red lentils.